"road not taken" by Robert Frost, personally a very inspiring poem, that talks about how the road less traveled by... made all the difference...tell me in reality how many of us will or will be allowed to take the road that is "not taken".
Aren't we from childhood taught to stick to the conservative rather less risky path in life? how many of us do take a chance with our studies or career even if it means to follow our dreams?
do we not stop ourselves from doing something that our heart may long for but the world around may criticize.
...and how many times has the fear of society stopped u from taking that path u knew would actually make the difference...
... it may have worked for Mr Frost when he said " I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference " but i am not sure if we all can take the road that we know will make the difference...may be that road even if we want, cannot be taken...
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
do i live too much in my past?
if you happen to know me once - and knew that i cared for you then - don’t be surprised if i pop up in front of you to say hello...just like that …out of the blue…..that is me…
is that normal?
i am not sure …there are times when i see something that reminds me of someone special ... it could be a little thing as a purple color…as that is what my friend jyoti liked…or a post box or a post man – as that reminds me of my childhood friend vivek whom i grew up writing 2 letters a week (and now new age letters - emails), or simply two girls giggling away to glory – that reminds me of my bestest (if there is a word like that in dictionary) of friends God could ever make…anamika
when i think of them i want to get back to them…so i follow the trace from where we lost touch and reach out…just to say hello…you know for old time’s sake… but what i don’t realize is that they may not have been thinking of me, they may have totally moved on … and for them the times that we shared are now just some fancy pictures in their album…
I miss my old days, my friends, my school, my school canteen and uniform, the corridor, the evening walks around the park with my 3 girlfriends, my colleagues in chennai and horrible drive to office in kelambakam far away from the city ….i miss every thing...
so when I come to know the whereabouts of a friend, I make that extra effort to reach out to them…you know for the old times sake and say hello...…but you know what - I am not sure if they feel the same way…
Its not that those were the perfect days …I had my share of heartbreaks,crying over the pillow nights as well…(check my blog…it talks all about it) … I see my life today…I am happiest i have ever been…i could not have asked God for more – (touch wood ) I have a perfect husband (parceled from my past - the days i am talking about), a perfect marriage and a great job…so why do I miss those times and people so much…??
is it that I am too sensitive when compared to others? is it a disease? is it abnormal? is it that the nostalgia glands (if any) work overtime for me…do I not want to let that time go? do I want to hold it back? …i do not know…so I worry thinking about it…as not many go around the world getting connected to school time friends, or people you worked with 8 years ago… I wonder, may be unlike most of the world… I live too much in my past…
is that normal?
i am not sure …there are times when i see something that reminds me of someone special ... it could be a little thing as a purple color…as that is what my friend jyoti liked…or a post box or a post man – as that reminds me of my childhood friend vivek whom i grew up writing 2 letters a week (and now new age letters - emails), or simply two girls giggling away to glory – that reminds me of my bestest (if there is a word like that in dictionary) of friends God could ever make…anamika
when i think of them i want to get back to them…so i follow the trace from where we lost touch and reach out…just to say hello…you know for old time’s sake… but what i don’t realize is that they may not have been thinking of me, they may have totally moved on … and for them the times that we shared are now just some fancy pictures in their album…
I miss my old days, my friends, my school, my school canteen and uniform, the corridor, the evening walks around the park with my 3 girlfriends, my colleagues in chennai and horrible drive to office in kelambakam far away from the city ….i miss every thing...
so when I come to know the whereabouts of a friend, I make that extra effort to reach out to them…you know for the old times sake and say hello...…but you know what - I am not sure if they feel the same way…
Its not that those were the perfect days …I had my share of heartbreaks,crying over the pillow nights as well…(check my blog…it talks all about it) … I see my life today…I am happiest i have ever been…i could not have asked God for more – (touch wood ) I have a perfect husband (parceled from my past - the days i am talking about), a perfect marriage and a great job…so why do I miss those times and people so much…??
is it that I am too sensitive when compared to others? is it a disease? is it abnormal? is it that the nostalgia glands (if any) work overtime for me…do I not want to let that time go? do I want to hold it back? …i do not know…so I worry thinking about it…as not many go around the world getting connected to school time friends, or people you worked with 8 years ago… I wonder, may be unlike most of the world… I live too much in my past…
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Can a man and a woman be “just” friends?
my answer is “why not?”, most of you around will answer no way…
per me, guy and a girl are two people and can be best of friends without having romantic feelings…friendship does not have anything to do with you being from same or opposite sex, friendship for me only means that you get along, hit it off and you care…
if I care for someone, I don’t train my brain to feel differently for a guy or a girl, all my brain…no my heart understands is that it feels for this person, I guess heart is typically sex blind to begin with…brain may understand the difference though…right…I think I am getting somewhere, let me rethink…
if you are ruled by mind and manage relationships – you see the difference, but if you are ruled by heart to drive relationships – you don’t see the difference…I guess this is the answer…
think of kids, they play in the playground, not worrying if half of them are in frocks or shorts, all they know is to slide down the slide, or catch some one quickly at hide and seek, may be coz their minds do not know the sex difference yet…as they grow they are taught about the difference and then brain understands it…so the complications begin…
you might laugh but i feel as strongly for my girlfriends as i can feel for a guy…i have this friend (ex colleague), I am extremely fond of, would get jealous if she mixed too much with other people, I would love to do small things for her, if tissue box on her desk was empty,I would replace it before she knew it was over…happily replaced her in official trips where she did not want to go…got gifts coz I knew she loved to be pampered, when some one got chocolates after travel – I would flick all the bounty’s first and hide it in my drawer – as that was her favourite, I sent million of thanks to God up there when finally she got engaged to her boyfriend… after she left I found a note pad of hers, with notes scribbled from meetings, I picked it up, two years past, I still have it with me, when I miss her - I open it look at her handwriting, touch the scribbled text to feel her again, I simply love her ….ya, now some of you might say "this babe is not straight"…that is exactly my point…why can’t a person truly and selflessly feel for another one without having romantic feelings? Why do you always have to mix it up?
well in here u might give me benefit of doubt, as we both are girls but if I did similar things for a guy…I am sure I will not be spared…and that is what irritates me…why can’t we accept that a girl can genuinely care for a guy without any romance in it – or vice verca…like I do for my friend mentioned above… why can't the world accept if I felt similarly for a guy?
why do you have to doubt the intentions if i care? why do you think i feel for you not the way a friend does but the way a girl would? why can't i feel happy to see you happy? what is wrong if i say you are special? why do you think i expect something in return? why i ask...why?
i am just being me, let me be...i ask nothing from you, i demand nothing from you, i expect nothing from you...
Saturday, February 24, 2007
it does not matter if it matters to you
people come and go, that is how most of the world looks at meeting new people, you meet, you know them and you move on… but some of them actually touch your heart…and when it happens; it does not matter if it matters to them…
well, let me try again; I don’t have many friends, I can actually count them on my figures…but apart from friends, there are many people, we may not even be in touch, I don’t even know where they are, but I still think of them fondly, remember the time we met, or few interactions we had, or may be years we spent together…they are very special to me, coz they all touched my heart …
…It does not matter if they remember me, it does not matter if they think of me, it does not matter if we ever meet again, all what matters is for me to be able to relive those moments I spent with them…
if I know where they are, I go round to say hello, and more often than not, they wonder - where did I appeared from? They must think I am crazy, but you know what…it does not matter, coz it is my need to see or talk to them again , it is my need to make them a part of my life and memories … its my need…not theirs…so it does not matter…
I am sure each one of us have some people in our lives whom we fondly remember – selflessly… without questioning if they think of you, if you matter to them….it does not even matter if they care…all what matters is that you care…you know why? … coz they touch your heart..…like you touch mine…
you are one of those whom I will fondly remember – always , it does not matter where we are, how old we grow, which paths we take …all what matters is I care…and, it does not matter if I matter to you…
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
I love...
i care, you know
i share, you know
i ask, you know
i answer, you know
i think, you know
i speak, you know
i give, you know
i demand, you know
i love - do you know?
i share, you know
i ask, you know
i answer, you know
i think, you know
i speak, you know
i give, you know
i demand, you know
i love - do you know?
Friday, January 26, 2007
What does sex mean to you?
Woman are always found saying, “all what men have on their mind is sex”
I am not going to debate on if it is true or not, or is it right or wrong. Who am I to pass a judgment? I can only share my views on it…
A recent survey in Australia came out with a result, saying 80% of men were willing to forego sex for a month if they were assured win in Ashes. A sports crazy India, will follow any triangular series be it one day or test series, India or no India, one will choose a team and be with them. Well, if we were to follow the rule Ausies talked about, looking at the cricket season of 10 to 11 months a year, leaves us with 1 to 2 months, and thanks to athletics, PHL, and god knows what all, not sure if one will get any share of 'other' sport…and then we say guys want it all the time.
I was at dinner with my colleagues when one of them tasted a dish and said “it is too good, just like sex” and I went like what??? Is that all what sex mean to men? Or is it that they have it so much that it is nothing but food for them, the bottom line is, they are able to compare it to some well cooked veggies.
If a couple sleep together for the first time, typically the guy will talk about it in his group for a day or two, boast about his latest girl and then move on to discuss the latest Formula 1 race. Let’s see how the girl’s next few days will look like. You will find her smiling all the time, eating, bathing, walking, sleeping, working, practically doing anything, all day long the smile will not leave her face. Before sleeping, she will play the sequence of that day again and again in her mind, close her eyes and try to feel his hands again on all the places he had touched…trust me this can go on for weeks...and then we say - it is men who have it on their minds all the time.
Just a few days back I was talking to a friend when he said don’t know why girls pay so much importance to the first date, first gift, first kiss etc…, I was wondering, my friend being a bachelor under 30, gives no importance to these intimate moments and me being married and in love with my partner probably ever since I grew up, still prepare for his return from his trips and hope for sparkly moments, if they happen I treasure them, and if they don’t, I go heart broken…how can we say that “guys” are the ones possessed by these thoughts?
Spy on to a girlie group in a cozy corner, 8 out of 10 times they will be discussing guys and their "thing"...talk about sizes, moves and what not... trust me the level they can go down to is filth...I am sure guys do it too but they talk about it laugh it out and next thing - they will be philosophizing about life or planning a trip they had been wanting to take for a long time, walk into the girly group, even after 4 hours they will be giggling endlessly as if guys and their “thing” is the only life these girls have…
Don’t get me wrong, I know guys are no saints and they too have an evil mind. Nowhere am I trying to imply that men do not think about sex, they better do…but women are no less, if not more they are equal…but they will die before admitting it.
I am not going to debate on if it is true or not, or is it right or wrong. Who am I to pass a judgment? I can only share my views on it…
A recent survey in Australia came out with a result, saying 80% of men were willing to forego sex for a month if they were assured win in Ashes. A sports crazy India, will follow any triangular series be it one day or test series, India or no India, one will choose a team and be with them. Well, if we were to follow the rule Ausies talked about, looking at the cricket season of 10 to 11 months a year, leaves us with 1 to 2 months, and thanks to athletics, PHL, and god knows what all, not sure if one will get any share of 'other' sport…and then we say guys want it all the time.
I was at dinner with my colleagues when one of them tasted a dish and said “it is too good, just like sex” and I went like what??? Is that all what sex mean to men? Or is it that they have it so much that it is nothing but food for them, the bottom line is, they are able to compare it to some well cooked veggies.
If a couple sleep together for the first time, typically the guy will talk about it in his group for a day or two, boast about his latest girl and then move on to discuss the latest Formula 1 race. Let’s see how the girl’s next few days will look like. You will find her smiling all the time, eating, bathing, walking, sleeping, working, practically doing anything, all day long the smile will not leave her face. Before sleeping, she will play the sequence of that day again and again in her mind, close her eyes and try to feel his hands again on all the places he had touched…trust me this can go on for weeks...and then we say - it is men who have it on their minds all the time.
Just a few days back I was talking to a friend when he said don’t know why girls pay so much importance to the first date, first gift, first kiss etc…, I was wondering, my friend being a bachelor under 30, gives no importance to these intimate moments and me being married and in love with my partner probably ever since I grew up, still prepare for his return from his trips and hope for sparkly moments, if they happen I treasure them, and if they don’t, I go heart broken…how can we say that “guys” are the ones possessed by these thoughts?
Spy on to a girlie group in a cozy corner, 8 out of 10 times they will be discussing guys and their "thing"...talk about sizes, moves and what not... trust me the level they can go down to is filth...I am sure guys do it too but they talk about it laugh it out and next thing - they will be philosophizing about life or planning a trip they had been wanting to take for a long time, walk into the girly group, even after 4 hours they will be giggling endlessly as if guys and their “thing” is the only life these girls have…
Don’t get me wrong, I know guys are no saints and they too have an evil mind. Nowhere am I trying to imply that men do not think about sex, they better do…but women are no less, if not more they are equal…but they will die before admitting it.
Friday, December 22, 2006
i believe in miracles…only waiting for it to happen...
You may find it kidish, but I truly believe in fairy god mothers, guardian angels and Santa….
I know for a fact that they watch and guard us from top, see us cry and feel sad, and live our moments of joy with us. Today we had a day full of Secret Santa's floating around us, playing the game where we become Santa for one another make others feel special…
I had no one playing Santa for me, but I wanted my real santa, my fairy god mother, my guardian angel to do something for me…I wanted "this one" message to come…which did not…I kept waiting…and I still am…
I don’t think it will come…its too late for that...butI will not give up hopes, you know why??? ...coz…
I believe in miracles … only waiting for it to happen…
I know for a fact that they watch and guard us from top, see us cry and feel sad, and live our moments of joy with us. Today we had a day full of Secret Santa's floating around us, playing the game where we become Santa for one another make others feel special…
I had no one playing Santa for me, but I wanted my real santa, my fairy god mother, my guardian angel to do something for me…I wanted "this one" message to come…which did not…I kept waiting…and I still am…
I don’t think it will come…its too late for that...butI will not give up hopes, you know why??? ...coz…
I believe in miracles … only waiting for it to happen…
Monday, October 16, 2006
Men are from Venus too...
Men too are from Venus, but after marriage they move to Mars... Am sure all the husbands have heard their wives going endlessly on complaints like "you are not the same", "you do not do the same stuff ", "you do not care the same", " things are not the same" ,"you have changed"... Whom do you blame? The Venus or the Mars? Well in my mind none... like I said, even men are from Venus, but after marriage they move to Mars. Let me describe it, before marriage everything in the relationship, like talks, calls, emails, sex all are like a new book - right out of store. The well bound book, nicely gift wrapped, and a note of love...perhaps along with a rose...how wonderful is this feeling...(you are living in Venus) You take a peek into the note which brings a smile on the face, you unwrap it (may be save the wrapper) and open the book with care, read the title and read the summary behind. The pages smell nice of fresh print, while reading you turn the pages delicately, and at bedtime you shut it with leaf or a flower as a book mark. While sleeping you re-live its content in your mind, you sleep off thinking about it ...Yes this is the story of how it happens in Venus...when both the guy and the girl are living in the same street as neighbors. Post marriage ... The same book sits on the bookrack for years,covered with dust, hardly noticed, it may get picked up for a quick read or reference when free, you dust it lightly and find out that the cover is missing, you turn to the back for the summary and it is half torn, not sure if rats have eaten it or kid played with it, well, you sit to read and when the interest is building up, you are suddenly lost, coz you just jumped from page 23 to 37, not sure if the missing pages were ever a part of the book, with the guess work you understand the flow and move on, and before you can finish it, you run out of your free time and rush out, keeping it back where it was, till you pick it again... Now you know his address has changed... Welcome to Mars. 10 Aug 2006 (9:43 PM)
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
does ass licking take you places?
this friend of mine does not belive in licking bosses ass, he is kind of an introvert, talks when needed, does his work (dedicatedly) and comes back home. does not believe in messing around with people, basically minds his own business.
i keep telling him to improve on his social skills, but he is the way he is. it will take a total personality change for him to go mingle with people without purpose..he is just not manufactured that way.
he and another dude in is work had joined together (one of the top 5 companies world wide).my friend is a well polished, sophisicated one, and the other one is kind of a mess (i have met him so can say so), so he surely will not have problem licking any ass and may be what ever else is required to be licked.
my friend had been working his butt off (he is working on a very complex project), and cracked a some cool stuff (silently), and the other dude though worked on some simple projects(this is known in the team that his projects are no rocket science), talks a lot about the work he does....
today some bigshot had come from US and gave an award to this other dude saying he has come up the pace quickly, while this friend of mine kept breaking his head with the complexities
is this fair? i keep telling him that it need not be ass licking but be vocal and talk about the stuff you .
gone are the days when your seniors would look at the silent hardworking guy and acknowledge his contribution. it is all about how well you can package the work you have done to the management and take the credit for all what u have done (also for what you have not done... )if u have done a simple task such as switching on ignition of a car, portray it as the engine was dead and you did the overhauling and made it work....uff it sucks...
i am really feeling bad my friend and hope he changes a bit, be more vocal about his work, no i do not mean exaggerate, but just talk about what he has done...more than that i hope that the managers and management changes the way they look and think, and finds out the way to identify some genuine guys around....
i keep telling him to improve on his social skills, but he is the way he is. it will take a total personality change for him to go mingle with people without purpose..he is just not manufactured that way.
he and another dude in is work had joined together (one of the top 5 companies world wide).my friend is a well polished, sophisicated one, and the other one is kind of a mess (i have met him so can say so), so he surely will not have problem licking any ass and may be what ever else is required to be licked.
my friend had been working his butt off (he is working on a very complex project), and cracked a some cool stuff (silently), and the other dude though worked on some simple projects(this is known in the team that his projects are no rocket science), talks a lot about the work he does....
today some bigshot had come from US and gave an award to this other dude saying he has come up the pace quickly, while this friend of mine kept breaking his head with the complexities
is this fair? i keep telling him that it need not be ass licking but be vocal and talk about the stuff you .
gone are the days when your seniors would look at the silent hardworking guy and acknowledge his contribution. it is all about how well you can package the work you have done to the management and take the credit for all what u have done (also for what you have not done... )if u have done a simple task such as switching on ignition of a car, portray it as the engine was dead and you did the overhauling and made it work....uff it sucks...
i am really feeling bad my friend and hope he changes a bit, be more vocal about his work, no i do not mean exaggerate, but just talk about what he has done...more than that i hope that the managers and management changes the way they look and think, and finds out the way to identify some genuine guys around....
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Every girl wants a Will Truman in her life...
Will Truman and Grace Adler (popularly known as Will and Grace) is a dream relationship for every girl. For them it cannot get better than this.
Why? Just think about it, your best friend, a succsessful and good looking guy , a live in relation (minus the sex), and all the care and love you can ask for.You do not have to worry about refilling milk in the fridge, or making breakfast in the morning, house will be clean, all the bills taken care of, if you have a bad day - you come back and cry on his shoulder, he feels happy for ur new relationships, and guess what he will also advice you on your make up and dresses.....best part is you know for sure that he will not hit on you...
The fact is some where in hearts of hearts we wish that he was straight and they both get together, after all who can be a better life partner than your best friend.
But why are girls scared to have the same relationship with a straight guy? Is it because she does not feel safe? Is sex such a big thing? Why feel scared and go look for a gay guy. What is it? It got to be sex, as apart from it, rest everything is same...you can get emotionally attached to gay as well, miss him when not there, feel cheated when he lies to you, are hurt when he does not do things right...it is absolutely a normal relationship, with happiness and sorrows and also fear of loosing one another, then why look for just a "Will" where you know rest all the insecurity of a relationship exist and only security (if you may call it) is - no sex.....
For me there was no "Will", had a best friend with a similar relationship of caring and sharing.....yes a straight...and guess what...for me the secret dream that we dream for Will and Grace came true, we did what Will and Grace could not ....got married.
Now I have this "Will" of mine, with all the above given features (I will be killed for this) plus a bonus of life time guarantee offer....
So all u girls out there, do not be scared to have a non gay "Will" in your life, you may be missing out on a great relationship, may be a best friend, and if you do not mind (what the heck) sex too. Ofcourse, not all of them will end up in marraige, my husband and I were Will and Grace for 12 years before we tied knot (and our marriage is a surprise to both of us )... but we actually shared the non committed, fun, care, love filled relationship for 12 long years....trust me it can work out with a straight guy also (with or without sex - as you may want it)
So go and have your "Will" in life, you can have it, only if you do not have the condition of him being a gay ...
Why? Just think about it, your best friend, a succsessful and good looking guy , a live in relation (minus the sex), and all the care and love you can ask for.You do not have to worry about refilling milk in the fridge, or making breakfast in the morning, house will be clean, all the bills taken care of, if you have a bad day - you come back and cry on his shoulder, he feels happy for ur new relationships, and guess what he will also advice you on your make up and dresses.....best part is you know for sure that he will not hit on you...
The fact is some where in hearts of hearts we wish that he was straight and they both get together, after all who can be a better life partner than your best friend.
But why are girls scared to have the same relationship with a straight guy? Is it because she does not feel safe? Is sex such a big thing? Why feel scared and go look for a gay guy. What is it? It got to be sex, as apart from it, rest everything is same...you can get emotionally attached to gay as well, miss him when not there, feel cheated when he lies to you, are hurt when he does not do things right...it is absolutely a normal relationship, with happiness and sorrows and also fear of loosing one another, then why look for just a "Will" where you know rest all the insecurity of a relationship exist and only security (if you may call it) is - no sex.....
For me there was no "Will", had a best friend with a similar relationship of caring and sharing.....yes a straight...and guess what...for me the secret dream that we dream for Will and Grace came true, we did what Will and Grace could not ....got married.
Now I have this "Will" of mine, with all the above given features (I will be killed for this) plus a bonus of life time guarantee offer....
So all u girls out there, do not be scared to have a non gay "Will" in your life, you may be missing out on a great relationship, may be a best friend, and if you do not mind (what the heck) sex too. Ofcourse, not all of them will end up in marraige, my husband and I were Will and Grace for 12 years before we tied knot (and our marriage is a surprise to both of us )... but we actually shared the non committed, fun, care, love filled relationship for 12 long years....trust me it can work out with a straight guy also (with or without sex - as you may want it)
So go and have your "Will" in life, you can have it, only if you do not have the condition of him being a gay ...
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